Why is it that my life is so disconnected? I have my past life, my present life, and my future life. I have my real life and my fake, imagined lives. I have my University Scholars life and my LEAD life. I have my public life and my private life.
And chronologically, I have a disconnected life. One day I’ll be eating healthy, loving others, spending time with God, and doing right. The next I’ll be in a bad mood till 10:00. Why?
Is nothing consistent?
What can be consistent in my life?
– My schedule? Well, sometimes I have to do stuff to interfere with my schedule. Sometimes I just feel tired and can’t meet certain requirements. Sometimes I don’t have the desire. Of course, will must win…
– My values- Yes, but my values are determined by the situation. I mean, I won’t one second be for abortion and the next be against it, but though I value both love and discipline, I must choose sometimes whether to step out and love a person or to work on homework.
– My faith- Once again, this is so affected by other things…
Ultimately, the only thing that doesn’t change is my Lord. He is always there. Why can’t I go to him? Because Satan takes the truth that He’s always there and adds to it saying, “so you can go later”.
Lord, help me find consistency. Let me follow you, not do a trek ala Family Circus that will eventually come 5 feet closer after two months. I want to grow in the me you’ve made me to be.
Your Boy,
Evan Christopher
http://geniusandlunacy.blogspot.com/2007/11/disconnected-days.html